Lifestyle, Mental Health

When the Silver Lining is Nonexistent

Normally, I can find the silver lining on a majority of bad situations. Maturity has helped me to recognize that sometimes losing something or someone is for the better. But what happens when you feel like you’ve hit the point of no return?

College for most people is finding life-long friends and soaking up every second of young adulthood, but what happens when it seems as if I am losing more friends than gaining? What happens when the supposed friends I do have, have more interest in what seems like everything else BUT me? Now of course, I know I am not the only one going through this and I’m not going to sit here and whine and complain about issues that I’m sure everyone faces at least once in their life, but now the question arises, where do I go from here and how do I keep from experiencing these feelings in the future?

Self-reflection of course is necessary because I’m not going to sit here and blame my issues on everyone else, but there has to be something more, doesn’t there? In all honesty, I don’t know what I am searching for in writing this, but I do know that writing is one thing that helps me to self-reflect and fully recognize and acknowledge all of the feelings I am experiencing.

Life is a series of lessons and a majority of the time, those lessons are brutal and take time to understand. I am aware that I am in the middle of one of those lessons as we speak, but how do I understand the lesson before its learned. What is the goal in my suffering? In my loneliness? Only time can tell.

So for now, I will focus on taking this pain and turning it into strength. I will fixate my attention on the positives in my life rather than dwell on the negatives. I will appreciate all that I do have and I will tackle each day as it comes because that’s all I really can do.

We all have bad days. So while I am in the midst of one, I want to remind you that if you are having a bad day, remember its a bad day, not a bad life. Cliché I know, but life is most definitely an obstacle course and we are just along for the ride. Wow, I am just a book of clichés right now, be that as it may, work with me in taking charge of your life. Work with me in reminding yourself that these difficult times will pass because as I had said before, these lessons may be brutal but the outcome is bright. With pain and heartache lies strength and beauty.

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xo ツ


8 thoughts on “When the Silver Lining is Nonexistent”

  1. Hannah, I’m sitting here thinking about you this morning and what you said about loosing more friends than gaining. College life is a whole new world, and it will be another new world when you get out of college. Friends come and go through each phase of your life. I think back to my high school days and I have 2 friends left that I stay in contact with but only twice a year. That’s all I need. Our lives have all went in different directions. We don’t need 10 friends or 50 friends, but what we need is true friends, wether it be 1 or 2. Right now my true friend is John, ha believe it or not , and I’m sure yours is Jackson. Well don’t know if I made any sense but know I love you as your grandma and also your friend.

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  2. I needed this. My grandma in Arizona is not doing so well… and I too feel like it is tragedy after tragedy right now. I do see myself growing as a person and becoming better. But, I feel alone and I feel like i have no friends. I could count on one hand the amount of friends I actually have and it is sad. But I think it is best for me. Love you sis. Text me when you can ❤

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